The Elixir of Madness

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May I sip
The elixir of madness
So that I may partake
In the innocuous of act
Of watching a fly
Drink from a cup of milk
‘Til it grew fat
And died.

May I sip
The elixir of madness
So that I may dress
In my finest garbs
And walk with much
Pomp and circumstance
Up and down
The High Streets and
Main Streets,
Greeting the populace
In a long dead language.

Dies boni amici.
Quomodo es?
Lorem tempestatem nos habere.

May I sip
The elixir of madness
So that it may blur
The edges of my existence.
Their sharpness cuts to the quick,
Leaving my ego butchered.
A mere carcass.
Lifeless.

May I sip
The elixir of madness
So that I may not
Hear the roar of
Silence, that threatens
To deafen me,
Piercing my eardrums
And leave my world
Soundless.

May I sip
The elixir of madness
So that I may fill
The space you left empty
With something that
Looks like you,
Sounds like you,
Feels like you,
Smells like you
And even tastes like you.

Alas,
It would never be you.

I loved you
And you loved me,
But the love lacked
Passion and desire,
So we unraveled
Ourselves from each other
And went our separate ways.

In your absence,
I yearn to drink
From this chalice
The elixir of madness
So that I may learn
To live without you.