It's crazy how I've taken to blogging. I'll try to limit it to the most 2 postings a day. I watch this Vlogger, B.Scott, on YouTube on a regular basis and the last video was about being grateful about what you have. That really made me think, and I realized I have a lot to be grateful for. I mean things could be a whole lot worse, so here is a short list of what I'm grateful for:
1. I am grateful for life;
2. I am grateful that I have the use of all my faculties - being able to see, hear, walk, etc.;
3. I am grateful for the experiences I've had - living in New York City, Florence, Italy, going to Paris;
4. I am grateful for my regrets, so I learn not to add to them;
5. I am grateful for my family and friends;
6. I am grateful for the talents I have;
7. I am grateful that at last I am moving in the right direction, instead of standing still;
There are so much more for me to be grateful but I'm keeping this short, the list I mean, but tell me what you are grateful for, leave a short list in the comment.
As I was surfing the 'net (how dated is that statement), I came across this article on the Smitten blog. It is called, How Do (or Did) You Imagine Your Future Husband?, and once again I really thought about it, it always comes back as this shaggy haired writer with beautiful eyes, be they green or hazel. The type of eyes I would look into and see the future. Yes, I am a romantic and I'm being truthful.
Here is how I look at it, I'm expected to settle down with a strong black man who will support me and my endeavours. For so long I've been thinking of doing what is expected of me instead of what I want. Do you know what I've wanted of late? I want someone who shares some of my interests, including movies, travel, languages. I want to be able to freely argue in another language and make up passionately. I want independence, I want us to be free to move around and yet be grounded in each other. I want an anchor that won't weigh me down, but keeps me from drifting. I want a father for my children, not a sperm factory. I want someone who is strong emotionally, spiritually as well as physically. I want a Yin to my Yang. I want to reach a point with this person where I feel completely comfortable to be vulnerable and weak. I want him to look at me and feel absolute love. I want him to go the extra mile, as I will do the same. So if I find that all in the form of a shaggy haired guy with a runner's build, rock on.
So what is going on for me in March? Well, I'm going to keep on blogging. I just have to organize my flats and I will start sewing in March. I'm starting with T-shirts, then I go to harder things, till I am constructing the evening gowns. I'm nervous, but I'm going to take it one step at a time. Never give, never surrender.
Oh yeah, Universe can you hook me up with the guy.
Also, here is the B.Scott video: